Love

Love Gives ME Hope.

a place in the world.

When everyone around is running and you are walking in slow motion

You are on a path that no one seems to realise . . take notice of, it feels like you are totally alone in a crazy mixed up world.

What we must remember is there is always someone walking alongside you, sometimes its just takes a while to see it. There, through the blur of moving bodies and faces, a lone figure emerges, then another, and another, until we are surrounded by friends.

Sometimes, even though it might be hard, all we need it a little bit of time to all find our way, and oh how we will be better for it.

Crossfire - Brandon Flowers

Tell the devil that he can go back from where he came
His fiery arrows drew their beat in vane
And when the hardest part is over we'll be here
And our dreams will break the boundries of our fear
The boundries of our fear

VENUS - The Feelers

Come my little venus
Wrapped in shadows, yeah you’re one of us
And I hear the footsteps inside your head
Walking, trying to find yourself
I found myself in you
Let me in, let me breathe
Yeah I found myself in you

Freedom.

Take off your dirty clothes
And go dancing in the rain
I know you're tired of running
Honey, I feel the same
If you stay here, there's no more room my dear
So I'll just go and find my way home

. .

. . just put a little love in your heart . .

MOVIES MUCH?

I Love Movies. And Music.

Two things which can pull forth so many emotions within a person. There is a movie and a song for every situation.

The funny thing is that movies especially seem to bring out a sort of perfect situation that really hits home and they find spots within a person that will toy with their emotions. So what makes a good movie? One that makes you feel happy? sad? leaves you confused? keeps you guessing? makes you laugh? makes you cry? leaves you satisfied? filled with love? gives you hope?

I think that all of these are the answer. A good movie is one that worms its way into your heart with out you even realising until its in there for good. I think that a good movie is one which we find some kind of connection with, that people will relate to, or find ideal situations in.

So, what are my favourite movies?

-> THE READER

-> SCHINDLER'S LIST

-> CHOCOLAT

-> THE HOLIDAY

-> ONCE

-> THE PROPOSAL

-> 500 DAYS OF SUMMER

-> SHES THE MAN

-> THE GREEN MILE

-> THE ROYAL TENENBAUMS

-> THE SHAWSHANK REDEMPTION

U2 - Beautiful Day

See the world in green and blue
See China right in front of you
See the canyons broken by cloud
See the tuna fleets clearing the sea out
See the Bedouin fires at night
See the oil fields at first light
And see the bird with a leaf in her mouth
After the flood all the colours came out

rage.

sometimes i actually have good ideas. not that anyone listens.

goal:

->not get walked all over by my 'friends'

another thing - i suggest something, they do it, then claim it. F*CK YOU.

goal:

-> don't help people, they generally just stab me in the back and take advantage of the fact i am nice and will help them out.

i need to stop being so giving. so far karma hasn't been too nice and obviously my niceness has gotten me NOWHERE. i bet about 10 people will turn up to my funeral (family).

although some people will be 'so upset' and claim the attention. of course. use a death to further everyones attention to YOU.

The Boxer

The Boxer - Simon and Garfunkel

I am just a poor boy.
Though my story's seldom told,
I have squandered my resistance
For a pocketful of mumbles,
Such are promises
All lies and jest
Still, a man hears what he wants to hear
And disregards the rest.

When I left my home
And my family,
I was no more than a boy
In the company of strangers
In the quiet of the railway station,
Running scared,
Laying low,
Seeking out the poorer quarters
Where the ragged people go,
Looking for the places
Only they would know.

Lie-la-lie.....

Asking only workman's wages
I come looking for a job,
But I get no offers.
Just a come-on from the whores
On Seventh Avenue
I do declare,
There were times when I was so lonesome
I took some comfort there

La La La.

Now the years are rolling by me,

they are rockin' even me
I am older than I once was,

and younger than I'll be,

that's not unusual
No it isn't strange,

after changes upon changes,

we are more or less the same
After changes, we are more or less the same ...

Lie-la-lie.....

Then I'm laying out my winter clothes
And wishing I was gone
Going home
Where the New York City winters
Aren't bleeding me,
Leading me,
Going home.

In the clearing stands a boxer,
And a fighter by his trade
And he carries the reminders
Of ev'ry glove that laid him down
Or cut him till he cried out
In his anger and his shame,
"I am leaving, I am leaving."
But the fighter still remains

Lie-la-lie.....

THEY BOTH WON!

IF

If

-Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

to make you think . .

a modern day poet

Music is the way to the soul, poetry for the 21st century. Nothing can capture your mood quite like the smooth tones, electric beats and easy tunes that over 50 years of mainstream lyrical music can offer. Whatever is happening, what ever mood you you're in, no matter how crap your day has been (or good for that matter) - you can ALWAYS find something that makes everything alright.

And if you really listen to the lyrics of a song, you'll often be surprised at what you find.

Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol.

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

love it.

idol much.

Lee, whose official backstory focused more on his adventures in home-improvement retail than on his considerable recording chops – seemed needful of (or at least open to) guidance. Is it any surprise that he’s the judges’ favorite, even cast by Simon in the role of conquering archangel when the judge granted him the right to sing "Idol’s" favorite hymn, “Hallelujah”? Lee, accepting "Idol" as his savior from obscurity, has become the show’s own salvation. And the faithful have flocked to him. His ascent will likely prove permanent.

-- Ann Powers

B. Button

Some people, were born to sit by a river. Some get struck by lightning. Some have an ear for music. Some are artists. Some swim. Some know buttons. Some know Shakespeare. Some are mothers. And some people, dance.

We're meant to lose the people we love. How else would we know how important they are to us?

Our lives are defined by opportunities, even the ones we miss.

wishing

Sometimes in life there are moments when everything just falls down, where those barriers, those strong walls, just coming crashing down around you and you are left raw and exposed, yet feeling so alone. It is in these times when one beings to question everything - what am I doing here? is this really what I want? why is everything just so hard?

Lonliness is a terrible thing. I'm generally someone who doesn't really get lonely - I like having my alone time, but am never really lonely. I think though, that when you start putting up barriers around you - creating invisible lines that you don't know are there until you see the gaps starting to form - that you really feel like you are alone in the world. Looking at it this quote is so true:

“Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.”

I think though, when you realise that there is no one who wants to break them down, it when you really get disheartened. When you realise that all that time you spent listen to people talk about their big issues - there love lives, their parents, their issues with this that and everything else - and they can't even take a few minutes out of their lives to ask how you are, is when things go a little pear shaped.

Now I really am not someone who likes to always be the center of attention - in fact generally i'm the one who gets angry at that person - and at the moment its sounding like all I want is everyones attention. But to be perfectly honest I never realised how entirely terrible it feels when it seems like your going at this thing alone.

So now I have a renewed understanding for all you people out there who can't cope anymore and who struggle through life - because even though only for a little while, I think I can now understand a lot more of what it really feels like to be so down you just feel like giving up.

So. When you have a friend who is generally very happy-go-lucky and smiley and just happy to be alive all the time - make sure you make sure they're okay. I'm pretty sure that is the hardest place to be - cause when your down no one sees any need to help pick you back up.

Sing for the Moment

We're nothin' to you but we're the fuckin' shit in they eyes
That's why we seize the moment try to freeze it and own it, squeeze it and
hold it
Cause we consider these minutes golden
And maybe they'll admit it when we're gone
Just let our spirits live on, through our lyrics that you hear in our
songs and we can...

Sing for the Moment - Eminem.

Robert.

Just watched Twilight again. Reminded of how fucking beautiful Robert Pattinson is. Wouldn't say no.